HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! Wish you all a blessed year of 2013.
I wanna share something about the past 2012.
I entered the year of 2012 with a great gift, I’ve got promotion in office. Moving to a better position. Better salary and better facilities of course, but also greater responsibilities & challenges.
And through the year, I was up and down (or in Javanese I may say : jempalitan) fitted my new job description and had not enough staffs to support me. But not only in office thing, but also in any other aspect of my life. I could say that year of 2012 was the hardest part of my life. Well, I don’t know about 2013. Let see how this year can be J
Because I was too stressful dealing with my job, I was unable to balance my life and relationship with God. And I messed up. I did many mistakes. And the notorious one was I did one big mistake right before 2nd semester appraisal. A mistake that I thought would ruin my entire career track in this company. A mistake that I knew was my stupidest mistake ever. So I hope nothing for my 2nd semester appraisal. I knew I was wrong and I could do nothing to fix it. I cried, I knew my position was not safe. It seemed like an 11 years career crushed in just a minute. I cried, I prayed, I tried to be tough and let it go.
When I finally got my appraisal, I was surprised with the point that I got. It was the highest one in my whole career. I didn’t know how my bosses changed their minds, but I knew it was the work of God’s hands that saved me. I couldn’t tell you how I felt. I was happy, relieved, amazed, but deep in my heart I knew I didn’t deserve it. Not a single one of the prize I deserved it.
Then I remembered this CHC Singapore’s song ‘Because of You’ :
Because of You, I was born again
Because of You, I’m ransomed by Your grace
Because of You, my heart has found a home
A refuge for my soul
Because of You, sins are washed away
Because of You, heaven knows my name
Because of You, I can live again
You’ve broken every chain
(Chorus)
Unfailing Love, so unreserved
You gave Yourself on Calvary
And now I stand, forever free
My Saviour rescued me.
(Verse 2)
Because of You, the weak say "I am strong"
Because of You, the broken have a song
Because of You, there's no need to fear
Hope steadfast, ever sure
(Bridge)
Now heaven, be open
Our God is, unshaken
We worship, Christ risen
High above
Now heaven, be open
All kingdoms, all nations
Declare that “You are God”
I was supposed to be punished, but instead He released me. Because of Him, I found my hope again. Perhaps you could imagine how I felt. It was like a prisoner that supposed to be jailed, but released by the authority of the judge. That was how I felt. He gave me the sweetest year-end prize, a thing that I knew I didn’t deserve it at all. But He just gave it away.
How could I thank God for that wonderful experience? How could I resist such a great love that He gave to me? It wasn’t about the prize, but how He cared for me. And He gave me a proof of His love. A real one. Something that I thought it had missing in my life. He proved to me that He loved me and He cared about me. And He brought me back my hopes and dreams. And I couldn't express how I thank Him for all that had happened in 2012. Because of Him, my mistake was turn into joy. Because of Him, my hope for this year steadfast.
God bless you.
With love and pray,
Vega
